My brain is chaotic… especially at 1 am…
Boy, I don’t even know where to start, my brain is chaotic right now. I honestly feel like I’ve bitten off more than I can chew, which means either one of two things:
1. Slow Down, or…
2. Grow a sharper pair of teeth
If you know me at all, you already know what I am going to pick…
My brain is on the following things… this is what consumes me as of right now:
- University workload(which is a massive amount)
- Solvr, pivoting and speaking to users aka doing a different strategy
- Another cool project, building the product right now
- Math, specifically Linear Algebra
- Computer science, firstly brushing up skills in JavaScript
- Working out, keeping in shape, it’s too damn easy to just become fat
- Concept innovation program at waterloo — being an ambassador
- Waterloo Private Capital: Associate dealing with clients + Research
- Trying to get smarter by reading books
- Low key trying to become an actor so figuring that out also…
- And life in general, just personal shit(everyone goes through)
That's my mind ^, this is what consumes me every day. I am also the world's biggest procrastinator, which is partly why I am writing this blog right now and not doing my work…
I feel like my brain is fried, you know when a computer overheats and the fan turns on to cool it down, that's the feeling I have… except instead of a fan cooling me down I feel like I am getting punched in the face by life.
Lol if you’re worried, don’t be, I'm honestly loving it. I didn’t always love it, but I think life has got me used to the occasional hurdles.
I wanted to just come on here and share my recent thoughts… where my mind has been these days. For those of you who didn’t know, I used to live in Dubai.
I moved there when I was 13. I was sitting in my room, listening to music thinking of the time I had, it’s crazy how fast time flies.
My mind has been focused on staying in the present moment. It’s currently 1:18 am,
I am writing this blog because I feel at this very moment, I am my most authentic self.
Life passes by so fast dude, honestly like crazy fast.
So I just want to remind you to take a deep breath, look around your room, enjoy this moment.
Good or bad, who cares, you’re here, so smile, life is great, and even if you’ve been feeling down recently, you should be grateful,
because if it weren't for the lowest lows, we would never appreciate the highest highs.
So come on, smile, laugh.. life is too damn short not to
If that didn’t make you smile… then take a walk dude I’m not your therapist.
I find having a good relationship with yourself is super important. You should understand who you truly are, not who everyone else wants you to be or
who you pretend to be in order to impress others who don’t really give a shit about you.
I mean you, the real you, the one only a select few of people in your life really know.
That’s what I’ve been doing recently… and honestly, it’s been so amazing.
I’ve been loving it. I get to know who I really am, deep down. The more I understand who I am, the more I start doing things that align with who I am,
And the more I do that, the more confident I feel… and I’m talking about raw authentic confidence.
Anyways, that’ll just be mine and your little secret.
Life is so cool man, like honestly such a gift… just go out there and go for it, don’t hold back. The world needs to see the real you.
But just always stay true to yourself, don’t lie to yourself, always confront things with yourself, whenever you do something that contradicts your inner core beliefs, discuss it with yourself, address it, and move on.
Always tell yourself uncomfortable truths.
I always leave you with a quote, so here it goes:
“This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.” — Shakespeare
Not going to lie… I didn’t understand a word… it took me two minutes to understand that quote.
If you really thought I was going to leave you with a quote that would take you a while to decipher its true meaning, I am not as cruel as you think I am.
I’ve been searching for a meaningful quote related to this blog, but I can’t find one, so I’ll leave you with mine:
“In the pursuit of finding out who you really are, you find yourself with loads of questions, regarding who you think you are and who you're supposed to be. What is remarkable is that in the journey of becoming who you are meant to be, you find the answers to the questions you had during the pursuit of finding out who you really are. In a way…only you can answer your own questions, not anyone else. So take solace in the fact that your ‘un answered’ questions will soon be answered by none other than yourself…the you that you are yet to be.”
To those of us that are continuing to get up every day and pursue our dreams, to us I say… Greatness Is Coming.
Explanation of the whiteboard photo if you’re interested…
So basically, one night I was talking to my brother about the word Hessian, and what it meant. I heard it in a podcast my cousin was in but had no clue what it was. My brother then said, “ You can think about it as the Jacobian of the Gradient”. I said, “Oh ok… what’s a jacobian?”.
So he showed me, its basic math terminology and once you learn Linear Algebra you’ll be able to compute it. Something with multivariable calculus and taking the derivative with respect to x and then with respect to y.
Anyways, I started to figure out how to compute Jacobians, he then taught me how to compute a Hessian, and explained what a gradient was. After that, we started talking about abstract classes in python and how you can create an abstract class instead of keeping having to update one with new variables.
We then started talking about the enterprise value over EBITDA of a restaurant in Chicago. Was probably one of the most interesting fun nights I’ve had.
Anyways… stay awesome, and don’t let this world change who you inherently are… you are worth it, so go out there and shock the world.
Yours truly,
Ali Habib
